I is boring at home. That is why i update 3 times for today.

I just tot of something. Something which really bother my mind. I really don't wanna blog abt this but then again i think i just wanna let out this feeling which i have been keeping to myself. Sorry kepade siape2 yg terasa. Cos it's my blog and i can blog whatever shit i wanna say. U read u keep your blardy mouth shut ayte. Not happy, come to me face to face and TALK? Not behind my back bitch.

FRIENDS do come and go. But i wonder what went wrong when someone whom you are really close with suddenly didn't contact with ya for a period of time. In just a sec that person just walk out of your life just like that. I mean like wow eh. When you are in need, you find that person. When you are okae, you just leave that person just like that. I mean you must be really something lah. Carik kawan biler susah. Biler senang semua hilang.

Yeah i know im jobless and i depend on mother for money but hell yeah i don't really bother abt that cos why. I myself finding a job and alhamdulillah now i landed myself with a job. But one thing still plays in my mind. Does you leave your friends just because he/she is JOBLESS and when you need a someone you wanna express your feelings then you come and find the person who you know will always be there for you 24/7? It that how you treat your friends?

Sometimes i really wonder am i a toy to most of my friends of what? I can't deny the fact that i am to kind-hearted to my friends. I don't throw my tantrum on them although how fcuking up cock-up they are? Cos why? I myself know that i ain't perfect and people tend to make mistakes. I easily forgive my friends although they hurt me ample of times without them knowing and still i be friends with them. Ya wanna know why? Cos i know they are not perfect and i accept them for who they are. I don't choose my friends. Aku kawan dgn smue orang. Yg straight. Yg tak straight. Smue aku kawan.

I think i have been to nice to my friends till somehow i felt they are taking advantage of me and my kindness. I don't really bother abt it at first but somehow it's getting on me and somehow i just can't stand it. I am not saying all but some. I don't wanna point fingers. Siape makan chili die terasa pedas nye. Cos i don't insert names here. I am just stating what's on my mind. I won't take any revenge or anything. Cos it is so not allysia. I am happy with my life and with my love ones around. Say what you wanna say. If ya think you miss me and wanna find me, you know where to get me. I am just tired of everything. Tired of being leave by friends whom i really cared about. I am happy to have great friends. Mayb my bet i dunno how to handle friends. But whatever. Friends DO COME AND GO. But only true friends stays.

I had never blog about this til today. I just wanna let my feelings out. I am really thankful that i have friends behind my back. You know who you are. Thank you.