Out of sudden while listening to songs, i cried. I cried because i remember you. Our memory flashback. Those dates we used to had. Those CATDOGMEOWWOOF fights we used to had. Those manjemanje mintak kena sikuSEVEN ajer we used to had. Those tiny small irritating bully we used to had. I really miss those time together.
I admit i am a one ego girl now. I didn't bother to text nor call you. I tried controllin from texting you to calling you. Simply EVERYTHING. I admit i do really miss you but somehow i just don't wanne show it to you.
Doesn't mean i didn't text or call you, i don't remember you. I do remember and cared for you. It doesn't even change one bit hillary. Even after you left me, i do still cared and remember you. but sometimes i let my ego takes over me.
Call me ego call me selfish. COS YES I AM ONE!!
You know how much i totally miss you. Till sometimes i cried til i went ta sleep. I cry in my sleep and that hurts to much. I really miss those times together with ya. Even though how much shit i have to put up with, i do still LOVE you. Even though all the stories i heard about you from people, i do still LOVE you. Even though sometimes you treat me like i never exists, i do still LOVE you. Cos i know you had that BIG EGO of yours. More bigger than your head.
After weeks of putting up with my BIG EGO and putting up a strong face infront of everyone. I brokedown to tears in the evening. Yes alone in my own room. Where nobody knows. I cried because now i realise how much i have put up my BIG EGO for this. How much i decline the fact that i miss you. I miss you so much. How much i told my friends that i don't need you nomore. BUT ACTUAL FACT THAT I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.
You teach me something that nobody teach me. You teach me not to be too pampered. You teach me not to be too spoilt. You teach me not to be too independant on parents and find own money. [Which i decline offcos in the past.] You teach me that world doesn't revolves around me myself and i. You teach me something that nobody teach or even worst told me. Which is hurtful at first but after awhile i come to my sense. And nodded to what you say was true.
Im sorry for not meeting you up yesterday. Something cock up happen. Shall not elaborate here. I will soon meet you. As i really need that cosy hug from you. I really miss you love. More than you missed me. :(
Remember one thing. I still love you and it will not change. Even though how many guys i get to know. Even though how many guys i went out with. It will not change. It will stay this way. Now and always. Do remember something. That somehow somewhere i am always near you. 8 digits away when you really need someone to talk too. I will be there for you.
♥.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LOVE. ♥
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The bottom line is that
people are not perfect.
& so am i.
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