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 Fcuk all the emotional moment i hadd since yesterday...The crying..The flashback of memories... I hadd been cryin non stop hit eversince it happen...i dunno y but tears just keeps on rollin down...i dunno how longg more i will be like this... i noe i gotta be optimistic over certain stuff but then with this i just cant...Everyone thinks i am STRONG..well actually im not strong nemore...i am not the kecik that u guys noe...i work my butt & try to keep myself bz, but i still remember him... every second every minute everytime, i will remember himm... remember everytime spend together was great...I noe life gotta move on.. My manager keep on saying that i am still young & that i can find someone again..but then for me it is not easy at all...i dun c any room for me to move on at all... all i noe is when i miss him, i will just cry... cry till i got no more tears... i dunno wad had happen to me... i used to have a relationship much longer which last for like 1 yr plus...but den that is a little bit hard for me to move on..but after which i get to noe him, i can really move on...forgetting every memories of me with that 1 yr plus ex... which makes me proud of him cos before i get to noe him, i used to hang out with those guys but then it is hard for me to forget that 1 yr plus guy.. with him, everything change... i really forget abt that guy & start a new life with himm... Everyone was proud of him..Pisang who tried everthing to let me move on also was proud of him...i dunno y it is easy for my family to accept him into their life.. maybe he is SOMETHING special...special to me special to my family.. i noe something happen mayb ade hikmah disebalik nye... i believe in this phrase...&& i also believe that just lets fate bring us together..if we were mean to be together than be it... just like Malek send me this msg a few back time..
Malek message:
I believe wad u sae.if u think that wae, u must prove that u are strong.. I noe u are strong cos u are diff frm other girls.. & if u think that fate will bring u guys bck together, den u must make sure that u will not give up loving him.. :)
i believe in wad Malek actually send me cos if it was fate for us to be together than be it... it not just let us be friends like the both of us want...
That special someone will be in my heart.. & i will never forget every time spend together...it was AWESOME... thks for everything... i will never stop loving u & stop missing u... u meant everything to me...how much people ask me to move on, i will not forget u... u are the first & the last...u makes me realise wad life is...
If ever a day to come where i could say those word to u.. i will just sae that how much i had miss u.. & how much i had lost part of me... u are my everything... having u in my life was great... i will not stop loving u... dun worry..i am not putting fault at anyone...it is actually OUR fault... if we were not like that, nothink will had happen...but it have happen...wish u all the best in life & pls do take good care of urself...just remember that i will always love u...& nothink can change my love for u... thks for everythink...
* take good care of urself...i will always remember u... :) 
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